I've come to realize that I hate it when people talk about me
Whether its good or bad
It makes me feel very uncomfortable, like everyone has their attention on me when someone's talking to them about me
I don't know, its weird

Like my boss likes to talk about me and how I'm a good worker
So when people tell me he says this I just kind of get nervous
And like, today people told me that Mrs. Hunn was talking about me because she doesn't like my attendance
(I didn't go to school today because I was terribly sick)
And that made me feel nervous

Words are just so empty
And yet they fill me with these emotions




I'm not in such a good mood today

Why do I keep Livejournal and Facebook?
I never really go on them
Oh well, if I need to vent I know where to do it at

I think this year will be a good year
I'm pretty happy with my classes

First block- English
I know Melissa and Sarah, the teacher talks quite a bit but she seems pretty cool and funny

Second block- Alegbra 2
Maria's in that class but we don't talk. Apparently Mr. Belezaire is a great teacher. So I'm looking foward to actually learning some math

Third block- Weight Training
I don't know anyone, I feel very alone in that class. And working out in front of people that I don't know is going to be extremely difficult and uncomfortable

B lunch- Nicole and Kristen! I'm so glad I have lunch with my two best friends =)

Fourth block- Guitar 3. The only reason I don't like that class is because its a mixture of Guitar 1 2 and 3. So its going to be slow for the first couple of weeks =/ Other than that, I like the people in there and I love guitar, so its a great combination =D


That's it
Life has been pretty good, nothing to complain about
Except that I really miss Nour
I was talking with her the other day online and it just reminded me of how much I wish she was her =/

Today turned out for the better



I woke up at 1:30 and thought today was going to be soooo boring
But then Lauren called me and saved the day
We went to the video store and rented Matchstick Men, such a good movie

Ahh, I love it when friends call me to hang out =)

I'm pathetic



I'm too scared, so I run from my feelings


They must all hate me

Whoooooo! I'm happy right now!
I've officially been in school for 30 consecutive days
Which means: I'm getting my license over summer
Which means: No more depending on my mom
Which means: Call me if you ever want to hang out! =D


Today was really cool
I performed my song in keyboard and everyone liked it
I really like music
And I think I'm gonna like my report card this time
I already know I'm gonna have 2 A's and a B+, but I don't know what I'll get in math
Oh well

I also can't wait till I get my lip ring
Ahhh, this summer is going to be amazinggg <3

So, I've decided that I'm not really gonna fill my livejournal posts with things that are depressing me
Instead, I'm gonna fill them with things that bring joy to me! =D


My sister let me drive her car today, it was a lot of fun
I really enjoy driving, and I can't wait for another month so I can drive all by myself
I really need to learn street names and stuff, cause I suck with directions

There's only 7 more school days left
Man, the last day of school I'm so staying out the whole night
I don't care who I'm spending it with or what we're doing, I'm just not going home
And I'm going to sleep until 5 the next day

I'm becoming the official trainer for new people at Cold Stone
Ralph, my boss, said I was really good at that
Him saying that made me feel amazing
I actually hate recieving compliments, but that just made me feel good inside
Like I'm actually doing something right for once



And yeah, screw depression
Happiness is wayyyy better <3

I took this from Nour's entry cause it pretty much described how I'm feeling. Nour, you're amazing <3



"Lately I've been feeling like I'm lost. I feel like I don't belong anywhere, like everyone in the world has gone bad. I don't think there's anyone who I can feel okay around. Its like theres no such thing as friendship or love or anything. Maybe I'm just depressed..."

Or maybe I'm just getting tired

Why do I feel my friends don't really need me?


And why do I feel the need to post that on here?




Attention whore!



But seriously....=/

Cause there's no one in the world like her




=(

Updateeeee!:

I chose my schedule today, I'm kind of mad that I couldn't get into weight training. Ugh. I hope next year I have a lot of people in my classes.


Ugh, I really hate being single! I see all these couples together and it just makes me want to get a gf/bf. I have to put myself more out there man.

I think I'm going to get a second job. I need some more money if I want to get the Mazda RX 8 <333 Its soooooo so so beautiful and sleek, I love it.

I think I'm going to run for president of GSA. Mr. Doyle, le supervisor, said he really wanted me to run, and I want to. So yeah, I'm doing it. I hope I win.

In other news, not much is going on. I'm trying to get Bryant a job at Cold Stone. It'd be pretty cool if he got it, and then I trained him! And when I'm shift leader I can boss him around, haha. Yeah, he better get hired yo.

I feel blahhhh, but still in a good mood. Wtf?! I want a car....